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[gundhamster]

[When Gundham starts the video, one thing is certain. While his outfit is similar to what he normally wears it's definitely... different. Several vines wrapped around his arms like snakes and his overall demeanor is more... determined.]

I have been here for some time now. Almost a year by my count. During that time I've had time to think. Too much time. But, I've come to a conclusion. Everyone that is brought here seems to have some talent or aptitude that furthers this place's goal, some history that makes them a candidate for being here. My talent is not one that is generally suited to the tasks laid out before us, though my history is.

A friend once told me that the future is not a river flowing immutably in one direction, but more like the ocean. You can try to go anywhere, though it doesn't mean you'll always reach your destination. However, the friends that I've made and comrades I vowed to survive with have had that future taken from them and so, I've made a decision.

I will not cling to hope blindly, nor will I let despair dictate my life anymore. I will take hold of my own future, embrace my path, and become the villain this place needs, for the sake of those left behind.

[That last remark is said with a slightly different cadence. He's choosing his words very carefully as if to get the attention of someone.]

And Mukuro, we need to talk.

[With that, he ends the feed.]

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[gundhamster]

[Considering Kadoc is one of the few people Gundham has consistent contact with, he figures he at least deserves a full explanation.]

There is no plan as of yet. This is largely... for my own benefit. To embrace the specter of who I was at my lowest so that I might do what is necessary to save those I left behind in my world.

[impostorsyndrome]

So you think doing this will play into what needs to happen here to fight back against the Calamity.

[He says this without judgement; it's not like it's a necessarily incorrect assessment. There are multiple proven ways it could actually work. Kadoc himself had advocated for a deliberate split in ranks during the recent Celliwig incident to maintain the impression that they're a mixed group of dark and light personalities, since that seems to be important here, at least by some measures.

Still. It's something he definitely needs to hear more about.]

[gundhamster]

I know what I am, and a hero or valiant knight I am not. I would be far more comfortable doing what needs to be done regardless of propriety or honor. In fact I would rather further sully my hands than let others carrying a code of honor or some higher calling stain theirs.

[Gundham has been out of the loop in terms of the Celliwig relations, as withdrawn as he'd become in the last month or so.]

[impostorsyndrome]

I'm gonna let the honorable people you're talking about have the inevitable argument with you themselves. They're not gonna let you step in to take on that burden so easily. But you probably know that. Overall, this isn't a bad thing. . . . In other words, I agree with you. The fae value us for having dark and light aspects to our personalities. Magic comes in Dark and Light, too. This doesn't seem like the kinda place where the way forward is for a bunch of pure-hearted heroes to always do the most moral thing.

[gundhamster]

My mere presence is proof enough against the selection process not considering the purity of one's heart, but that is besides the point. I am ashamed to say but I have been rather... withdrawn as of late. I've heard precious little news, Camelot or fae related. What has happened these last couple of months?

[impostorsyndrome]

[He reflexively smiles, darkly amused, at the first part. Now that's a sentence he can relate to. No one in their right mind would ever deliberately choose Kadoc at this point to save a world. But that aside—]

We passed Celliwig's trials. I heard we only passed because we weren't too good for them, or too bad. They take that kinda thing seriously. On top of that, something serious and unplanned came up with Arthur on a business trip to Celliwig, and as far as I can tell, they're impressed we managed to play both sides of that one too. They obviously won't cooperate with a united front.