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[beaumains]

[ She's really not fond of making posts where it's obvious she's been dealing with injuries. She's kind of sick of the feeling of burdens that come with it. But this is something she has to do, regardless, sighing as she sets up the camera, itching a bit near the bandage over her head. ]

Hello. Sir Gareth of Orkney here, again... [ Not much energy in that greeting, huh? ]

So... The truth of the matter is, much as I've tried, I don't actually... remember anything from after Rubion cursed me, but...

I know... I lost control... and while I know not what I did in that rage, I know it was all I felt. The sort of anger that feels like Inferno in your chest.

[ She takes a moment, sucking in a breath, before making eye contact with the camera, and then... bowing. ]

To anyone I might have hurt... I apologize, from the bottom of my heart. I can hardly still call myself a knight, knowing what I have done, but... I can't let that shame keep me from making amends, either.

[ She rights herself, nodding. ]

If you've any request of me, I shall see it done. Just say the word.

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[beaumains]

It's not a matter of blame!

[ She immediately realized she'd raised her voice, balking and shaking her head, bowing it again. ]

It's... it's a matter of responsibility.

[sos_pilot]

[ Yikes. Okay, so, That Approach isn't working. Della pauses, then sighs. ]

... All right. I'm not gunna fight you on this. If this what you want to do, then none of us have any say otherwise.

[beaumains]

... [ A deep breath. ]

Thank you. I know I'm being stubborn, but... this means a lot to me. For reasons I'm not very good at explaining, I suppose.

[sos_pilot]

Hey, it's part of who you are. If the situations were reversed, I would probably do the same thing.

[beaumains]

[ Gareth managed a smile, if a small one. ]

That empathy matters a lot to me, too... more than I can really say.

[sos_pilot]

[ A soft little chuckle. ]

We may be different in a lot of big, obvious ways... but we're also alike in a lot of ways too. Sometimes you remind me of myself when I was younger.

[beaumains]

I can only take that as a compliment, given all you've told me about your adventure-filled youth.

[ Hell, Della was still an adventurer right to her core. Gareth couldn't help but admire her. ]

[sos_pilot]

Heh heh! How did we go from licking wounds to praising each other? Sometimes you're sweeter than the desserts we make!

[beaumains]

I'd like to think those are both part of the same process, really. One lifts others to lift themselves.

[sos_pilot]

Which means I can't let you get too down on yourself, right?

[beaumains]

I doubt you ever would.

[ She knew Della well enough at this point. ]

But I also try not to weigh on other's hearts too heavily.

[ Which brought them back to the original point... ]

... This is a matter of knights and chivalry. I'm... fine. Mostly. But I still need to take responsibility for what I did.

[sos_pilot]

Hey, can't blame a gal for trying.

[ A little one shoulder shrug. ]

But would my teach' object me to getting her some hand-made baked goods anyway?

[beaumains]

Well... I suppose I still have a responsibility to measure your progress.

[ So. Yes. ]

[sos_pilot]

[ yay :3 ]

Any preference, or should I surprise you?

[beaumains]

The best sort of surprises are sweet ones!

[sos_pilot]

You got it, teach! One surprise, coming up hot and fresh!

[ Sweet = Sugar in della's mind, so Della will later drop off a batch of sugar cookies! And they're not burnt clumps of charcoal, so, progress!!! ]