text; un: thanatos

[inevitablerest]

This may seem a strange question to some.

[But Thanatos does not often indulge his curiosity, so he is doing so right now.]

I have been wondering if there are any others here like myself, who had an existence dedicated only to a single purpose from the moment it began. Before arriving in Avalon I had barely considered the possibility of deviating from mine.

Very suddenly having a great deal of free time was new, unexpected, and a struggle to become accustomed to.

I suspect, given the number here from other worlds, that it isn't only myself and my brother who led such lives before. I would like to hear from others, and hear how they have dealt with the adjustment.

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text; un: hawkeye

[custodire]

[ Normally, she would pass over things she'd deem to have a more emotional response. Her situation the complicated one that it was — Seen fit to be the research notes of her father to pass on one day. And when she did, that going so horrificially wrong, knowing that she'd have to spend each day to make up for it.

She can't quite say her whole life, from the moment she was born, she was dedicated to it — It was hard to say, with her father's spiral into madness. But certainly, the rest, she knew as her reason for acting (the reason she was alive, in some respects).

Being stripped of the purpose and people she had to protect to achieve it hasn't been an easy one. She's felt lost and like she hasn't done enough most days, but still she responds (a much shorter line than her thoughts give credit for):]

I can't say I've adjusted. Even so, allowing myself to falter for even a second would be in poor form. I live each day the best I can, doing what preparations I can in hopes I'll return to that goal one day.

[inevitablerest]

What preparations can you make here for a purpose that didn't follow along with you?