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avalononline2022-08-22 09:51 pm
colchismagecraft) wrote in avalononline2022-08-22 09:51 pm
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Fifteenth: Reflection Time (Video; un: Caster) - backdated to pre-Event
Good evening, Avalon. For those I haven't met yet, I go by 'Caster' here.
[As ever for her network posts, Caster had settled in a darkened room- a different one to the last one she'd filmed in, now she'd moved into Kadoc's place. But her tone seemed more thoughtful than ominous, this time around.]
These are just my musings, so feel free to pay them no mind...but I've been thinking over a few matters these past weeks. I feel that, since I've arrived in this realm, fragments of who I am have changed. The way I see myself, what my intentions are, the feelings I have about others here and this realm as a whole.
...I doubt the 'me' who first arrived in this place would have considered discussing this publicly, for example.
[She'd noticed it a few times now. That she'd been less guarded than she had been when she first arrived- that she'd even seen herself as someone who might truly be called a 'Heroic Spirit' in earnest. And that maybe, she'd finally put the Grail War behind her.]
Is there anyone else who feels...different, somehow, from when they were first brought here? Is it truly possible to change in a place like this- even for one so deeply tied to their past?
I'd be curious to hear what the rest of you have experienced, if you would be willing to humour me.
[As ever for her network posts, Caster had settled in a darkened room- a different one to the last one she'd filmed in, now she'd moved into Kadoc's place. But her tone seemed more thoughtful than ominous, this time around.]
These are just my musings, so feel free to pay them no mind...but I've been thinking over a few matters these past weeks. I feel that, since I've arrived in this realm, fragments of who I am have changed. The way I see myself, what my intentions are, the feelings I have about others here and this realm as a whole.
...I doubt the 'me' who first arrived in this place would have considered discussing this publicly, for example.
[She'd noticed it a few times now. That she'd been less guarded than she had been when she first arrived- that she'd even seen herself as someone who might truly be called a 'Heroic Spirit' in earnest. And that maybe, she'd finally put the Grail War behind her.]
Is there anyone else who feels...different, somehow, from when they were first brought here? Is it truly possible to change in a place like this- even for one so deeply tied to their past?
I'd be curious to hear what the rest of you have experienced, if you would be willing to humour me.
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well
i wish you luck
war is an unpleasant business after all
[One that she could imagine very few finding any pleasure in...then again, she hadn't met anyone who loved it the way the Major did. Perhaps that priest would come closest.]
i intend to return to save myself and someone i care for
nothing more
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But I think it's nice that you have someone you care about that much.