colchismagecraft: (Anticipation)
Caster ([personal profile] colchismagecraft) wrote in [community profile] avalononline2022-08-22 09:51 pm

Fifteenth: Reflection Time (Video; un: Caster) - backdated to pre-Event

Good evening, Avalon. For those I haven't met yet, I go by 'Caster' here.

[As ever for her network posts, Caster had settled in a darkened room- a different one to the last one she'd filmed in, now she'd moved into Kadoc's place. But her tone seemed more thoughtful than ominous, this time around.]

These are just my musings, so feel free to pay them no mind...but I've been thinking over a few matters these past weeks. I feel that, since I've arrived in this realm, fragments of who I am have changed. The way I see myself, what my intentions are, the feelings I have about others here and this realm as a whole.

...I doubt the 'me' who first arrived in this place would have considered discussing this publicly, for example.

[She'd noticed it a few times now. That she'd been less guarded than she had been when she first arrived- that she'd even seen herself as someone who might truly be called a 'Heroic Spirit' in earnest. And that maybe, she'd finally put the Grail War behind her.]

Is there anyone else who feels...different, somehow, from when they were first brought here? Is it truly possible to change in a place like this- even for one so deeply tied to their past?

I'd be curious to hear what the rest of you have experienced, if you would be willing to humour me.
morns: (ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴜᴛᴇʀ ʟᴀʏᴇʀ)

private text; un: didnot.

[personal profile] morns 2022-08-27 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
yes and no.
don't know if it's for the better or not.
morns: (ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪғ ɪ’ᴍ ʟᴏsᴛ)

[personal profile] morns 2022-08-31 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
don't think i would be in the same position back home

( That's... so fucking cryptic. )

would never have thought to make a business there

( That's better. )
morns: (ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ sᴛᴏᴘ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ)

[personal profile] morns 2022-09-06 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
i do.
do you?
morns: (ᴀɴᴅ ғɪɢʜᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ɪᴛ)

[personal profile] morns 2022-09-13 03:18 pm (UTC)(link)
then coming here was worth it