(Text; UN: amidala)

[politicallyinclined]

Others have spoken of nightmares. I know there are remedies, but I think it would help me more just to...talk. About what I have seen. Some of it has to be in my mind. But I can't help feeling sick and...guilty.

I am needed somewhere else. I know I am. (The voices she hears in her dreams are unmistakable. Anakin is calling for her. And sometimes there are small cries too; the cries of infants.)

Does anyone know about the Force? What about the Jedi?

The Sith? (She knows at least one person is aware of those subjects, but are there others?)

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Text; UN: m.kyrielight

[unfalteringwall]

I’m afraid I don’t know of those things you mentioned, but I’d be curious to learn about them! And…if you need someone to listen, I’d be happy to do so. I know all too well what it’s like to feel like you should be somewhere else.

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[politicallyinclined]

From what I understand, the Force is...life. The energy all life gives to be precise. And the Jedi are those who can commune with the Force and use it to better the galaxy.

As for the Sith...

They are basically the opposite of the Jedi. Their desires are self-serving and often about acquiring power.

(Padmé softens at the offer, touched.)

Do you? How do you handle the guilt?

[unfalteringwall]

I see, that’s very fascinating! It sounds rather like mana and mages, but I’m sure there are many little nuances of difference.

[Mash pauses, considering how to reply.]

Given the circumstances back home, I haven’t really had much time to dwell on feeling guilty. [She still manages to sneak it in, though.] I think, though, that it helps to remember that no matter where you are, even if it isn’t where you want to be, you are still performing an important role. You are a valuable asset to those around you. You can still do good and make a difference.

[politicallyinclined]

If I were a Jedi or a Sith, for that matter, I could tell you more. The Jedi especially have studied the Force extensively.

(While the details are fascinating, it's not something a normal person like her can fully grasp.)

Reminding myself of that is well and good - I like helping others - but I can't forget that I'm not helping my family. They need me more than ever and here I am living in some fantasy.