Text; un: Smoking Bomb

[bakudan_bambino]

Aurora and Zuko are no longer here in Avalon.

[Gokudera will not be attending his classes, showing up to work, or training at the dojo for several days. He just lost his boyfriend and girlfriend and he’s tired from fighting wraiths. Mostly, he’s just being an angsty teenager.

Feel free to blow up his IC inbox. Messages on this post will likely get delayed responses.]

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[mayoninofukucho]

[Hijikata absolutely feels for Gokudera. Okay, this isn't working out. He stands up and puts his books in his bag.]

Let's go for a smoke.

[Smoking always helps him calm his mind a little... and maybe Gokudera does want to talk about it after all, outside under the evening sky. Once they're in the library's enclosed little courtyard, sitting on a bench in their warm clothes, perhaps with a coffee from the little bistro next door to go with their cigarettes if Gokudera felt up for it, he tries to find the right words.]

...

I know there's no guarantee that you'll see Aurora and Zuko again, in this world or another, but they're still part of your life. And that's alright, Gokudera. People can disappear from one day to the next, but our memories of them don't, and neither do the feelings we have for them and they had for us.

[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera was trying to quit, but… he does appreciate the offer, and it’s not like picking it back up is going to make a difference quickly. With magic acting odd, he should have smokes on him to help light his fuses if he needs them. He accepts the cigarette and he has a coffee in his hands as more of a comfort to hold than to drink. The warmth feels nice, and he can use his magic to reheat it, but of course, won’t even think about what he’s doing.

He listens and the words should help, but there’s bitterness rising. The need to hide, to form some kind of protection habitually kicks up and he scoffs, clearly upset and disbelieving what the other says.]

If I see Zuko again, I’m going to wring his stupid neck.

[mayoninofukucho]

[Gokudera was trying to quit, but Hijikata is such an addict that he already forgot. The pack of cigarettes the bomber gave him is most likely still in one of his uniform pockets. He smiles faintly at his words... that's what he would say too, really. It's easier to say things like that.]

He has it coming, leaving you behind here. What kind of world did he return to, do you know?

[He recalls Zuko's AOL username being 'fireprince', but that's probably just like how Okita back home is a sadist prince. Unless...]

[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera isn’t so dead-set on trying to quit anymore. He’s not stressed enough to need to be chain-smoking alone in his apartment, but the occasional cigarette feels familiar and oddly… comforting.]

I know that Aurora didn’t want to leave, so I can’t be mad at her. But… Zuko has a whole kingdom to get back to… He didn’t want anyone here to know his standing there, or for me to talk too much about him. I think while he was here, he just wanted to lay low.

And all of his friends left him at one point. But right around the same time one of them showed up, he was gone. Right after that invasion… which I’m not grateful for. [People got hurt, and he’s not happy about that. Not happy that they were targeted because some idiot tried to resurrect/wake-up/exhumate someone.]

But it was a good distraction for a minute…

[mayoninofukucho]

Battles are always a good distraction.

[A distraction and an opportunity to channel sadness, grief, and anger into violence. Totally healthy!]

So you really landed yourself an actual prince! That's pretty amazing.

[In Hijikata's opinion it speaks well of Zuko that he kept a low profile on Avalon, even if it was only for practical reasons - that shows that he thought it through smartly, and in either case he clearly isn't the pompous kind of royalty.]

Aurora didn't want to go? Is she from an unpleasant world?

[He hopes not, but if it's something weighing on Gokudera's mind he can at least share his worries.]

[bakudan_bambino]

[Except for the fact that he’s been spending over a year getting the hang of his magic and utilizing it in place of his dying will. Gokudera’s not sure what is actually productive. As far as he knows, it’s okay to cry, but not to give up, and… what would make time go by faster? It’s waiting for himself to heal that’s getting difficult.]

Yeah…

[Gokudera doesn’t think he deserves any credit. Zuko was the prince, after all. A far better man than him. And Aurora…]

Mnnn she’d just discovered a lot about herself and… she was royalty as well. I didn’t belong with either of them.

[They could have just been happier with each other and never involved him, but… he knows that’s not the truth. That feeling comes from hurt, lashing out at himself internally is what he’s good at.]