avalononline | 7. un: tsuna27; text

I guess I could try that. It might help, the dream journal anyway. But do I just...try thinking about different things before I go to sleep?

I really don't know how to control that.

[For the dreams he remembers anyway.

It's weird to think of Yamamoto being from that far in the future. Even if Tsuna doesn't know how far it actually is. He almost feels like kicking himself, for how little he knew back then. Really, he hadn't scratched the surface of anything.

Byakuran being helpful is also a weird thing to think about. Especially with how he'd been in that Future. But the idea of multiple Byakurans makes sense.]

I know. I just wish I hadn't had to. It's just weird to think that he was gone like that...

[Not knowing what happened to Byakuran is almost worth than the alternative, of knowing what could have happened. But Tsuna can't bring himself to think that.]

Try focusing on how your day went and looking forward to the next day. Or, you can meditate. That’s usually how I fall asleep.

[He looks sheepish about that, because while Tsuna isn’t having a hard time falling asleep, Gokudera has to rely on tactics like breathing exercises, guided meditation (which should not put him to sleep but it usually does).

Gokudera looks apologetic.]

But you did and it’s changed for the better, Tenth. I’m not saying it was easy. We all know it wasn’t… but you really should be thinking about something else.

Believe me, I want to. I really want to.

Is it weird that I kind of want to talk to Byakuran again? I just...I guess I want to understand.

[Tsuna knew why he had to oppose Byakuran, and he'd do it again without question, but they'd never really tried to see things eye to eye.]

But I'll try what you suggested. I mean, the days here are pretty nice. And thinking about homework usually makes me tired.

[He does believe him, but doesn’t know what else to say that may offer help. Gokudera looks taken aback to hear that his boss wants to talk to Byakuran.]

Oh… No! I mean, it would help? Give you understanding and closure, but I don’t know if something like that is possible…

[Not like they can summon anyone to Avalon.]

I like to think up some sort of schedule I need for the next day [He moves his hand to his mouth, like he’s going to whisper something]

I never remember it when I wake up, anyways.

Yeah, probably not. I guess...it might just be something I have to come to terms with.

[Certainly, he can't really talk with the version he fought, but maybe it'll be something to think about should he return.]

Maybe you need to write it down or something? Unless it's just a way to go to sleep.

It’s become a way to get to sleep, but depending on what I’ve got planned for the next day, sometimes it does more harm than good, and I have to stay up late to write out a full itinerary…

[Whoops.

Gokudera shakes his head.]

But I mean, you can do that or meditate, probably!

I don't know if I've ever been that good at meditating, but the itinerary thing might help with remembering everything for school.

[Though, knowing Tsuna, he might be up late remembering a homework assignment.]

Maybe it just means you have to do a little less.

It’s a good distraction from other troubling thoughts that could inspire dreams like what you’ve been happening. Focus instead on what you can do now and your mind should make more dreams about you being here.

[Or Byakuran showing up in Avalon. That… sounds like a different brand of nightmare considering the Byakuran Tsuna had just recently defeated.]

I do tend to bite off a bit more than I can chew…

[That's actually good advice, and Tsuna is going to take that to heart. Just trying to focus on the now, and try not to worry about Home. Everyone's safe there, and he can't really do anything else about it.

But god forbid Byakuran show up here]

I'll try my best with it. Hopefully it works.

But that means you need to relax to. Otherwise, I'm gonna worry.

[God forbid any of their enemies (even those turned ally), show up in Avalon.]

Oh, I can do both! A rest isn’t as satisfying unless it’s after some hard work, after all.

[He wants to feel as though he’s earned every break he takes.]

[Tsuna's heart couldn't handle that level of chaos.]

Just don't work too hard.

[You're allowed to be lazy!]

Do you mind staying for a bit longer?

You know that’s impossible for me, right?

[Gokudera doesn’t really give himself much opportunity to be lazy or rest. It is a ceaseless grind.]

No. I don’t have anything else planned.

[The downside of him trying to keep so productive is that he often finishes his tasks ahead of schedule. So… time to fixate on this next thing in helping distract his boss so that he won’t be focused on those bad dreams.]

Are you going to try and go back to sleep, or was there something you intended on doing?

[They could… make something together? Honestly, Gokudera is comfortable around Tsuna, and would happily just… read to him. He’s sure if the subject is boring enough, they could both take a very rewarding nap together.]

Yeah, I know.

[Said with a bit of a laugh. He can try though.]

No, I don't think so. I don't really want to. I was thinking of just watching tv or something. Not focusing on anything.

[Gokudera gives him a gentle, fond smile at that acknowledgement and laugh. He doesn’t mind talking with Tsuna… ever. It’s getting more comfortable, probably because he’s trying to treat his boss more like his friend.]

I can watch something with you and we can hang out!

[He’ll probably fall asleep though.]

I'd like that. If there's something you want to watch, go ahead. Otherwise, I might just surf until I find something.

[Maybe something with giant robots. That's about his speed right now.]

That’s fine by me! I don’t watch much of anything, so it’s all interesting.

[But he will inevitably fall asleep and lean on Tsuna, even if he isn’t planning to do so. Gokudera settles down comfortably and looks at his friend with a gentle smile. No expectations for him aside from his company.]

[This is really all Tsuna needs, to be honest. So he'll just flip through channels until he finds an interesting looking movie or tv show. But with Gokudera there beside him, it's easy to just let go of the dream for a bit.]

[Gokudera is asleep against him, completely crashed. Even if it’s midday, he may have been pushing himself a bit hard. Not that he ever mentions it or keeps close for anyone to pick up on his habits. Tsuna likely knows about them, but if Gokudera can stretch himself towards his breaking point to achieve faster growth, he will. Maybe not as recklessly as he used to, but he’s tired.

Comfy there with his boss, assured by his safety and just leaned right on Tsuna, almost snoring.]

[Tsuna flips the channels a bit, eventually settling on what looks like a nature documentary. But mind settled a bit and with Gokudera there, he eventually drifts off as well.]

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Idk if you wanna wrap but here have a sleepy Gokudera

<3 we can wrap here