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[What's waiting in sleep now?]

Did you see something, sleeping?
I see a lot of things, sometimes. But that's why I'd wanna know.

Just a dream...or I guess, it's more like a memory.
Been kinda constant, and I just want to move on.

...what do you see?

[Blue.]

I see blue.

It feels like burning sometimes. Japan's a warzone right now, though all of that's stalled for the moment.
But I was injured in all that fighting before.
I guess I'd blacked out at some point...

[Shaking film again; his memory's flickering a little.]

It's like the past seems to follow here.
You've probably had the same thoughts, I'd guess. Like it's all a bad dream still.

It's orange for me.

[The orange of Sky flames, his and Byakuran's and Uni's.

Tsuna has question but he's a little reluctant to ask. Perhaps another time. But he gets that, considering what he just fought through. He'll probably never look at the mountains around Namimori the same way again.]

Yeah. It feels like that.
Not quite a nightmare, but still not good.
And I can't really let that past go.
I guess I feel stuck.

[The past never dies. All he hears; all he's dreaming, still. The colors haunt him here too, now.

He's empathetic.]

You're seeing color there too?

I just wish it were only dreams. I haven't really settled a thing yet, and all that fighting's still waiting.
There's just something I'll need to do, first.
I think your friend's helped me realize that. I need to find my "dying will" here; and then maybe I'll put an end to this. All this dreaming about it.

I won't ask you to share what orange means, but you're not on your own here.
I don't mind this sort of thing, either... Talking it out.

I'm glad you mentioned this, really.

[In a way.]

It was getting to the point where I knew I couldn't figure it out on my own. And I know enough now that I need to ask for help.

And being able to say something has helped.
Even if it's complicated.
I'm sorry that yours isn't something you'll be able to settle here.

I don't know how much Gokudera-kun has told you, but orange is the colour of my dying will.

[It's terribly familiar.]

In that case, I'm glad you got it out of you.
It's like an old wound, sort of; like it didn't quite heal enough. I guess I'd know that by now.

Is it always this bad for you?
I won't say I could help much, but I'll still do what I can here.

[But about that,]

He hasn't told me too much, really. We only talked about our flames before.
He said to focus on my "will" next, but there's a lot I don't understand just yet.

[He'll muddle through anyways.]

Is that connected to your dreams somehow?

No. This is recent.
I. I think I went back home for a bit.
So, these are still kind of new memories.

It's hard to get your head around it sometimes.
I had to learn a lot through experience.

But yeah, it is.
IN my world, we're not the only ones who can use Dying Will flames.
I was fighting against another Sky Flame user.

[H- hold on there!]

You mean your world's called you back?
So it hasn't been that long, then?

[Please wait for him... He's processing.]

I don't think I've heard of Sky Flames, though. Gokudera's mentioned different types, so I'd just tried to imagine that. Like having more than one Quirk before.

[But still!] Does this mean you fought a rival?
I've heard of rivals in the sumo club, like you were enemies or something.

It just all sounds pretty serious now, if you're dreaming about it.

[This is worry. He's had too many questions.]

Were you injured at all?

[Oh, right, The Sumo Team lie.]

Yeah, I think it was last month?
It was really disorienting for a while.

[So much in so little time]

Yeah, there's different types of Dying Will Flames.
Some of it is a little complicated and kinda goes over my head haha...

But yeah, it was a very fierce rival. And a very important win.

Nothing major, but he hit hard.

[He's gullible often. More than often.]

You're pretty amazing, Tsuna. You're not their leader for nothing.

[The club's he means.]

I'm honestly glad you came back, though...
I wasn't ready to say goodbye just yet.

[Was that selfish of him?]

I'll bet you could probably take on anyone. I'd just like to understand it more.
If I'm thinking about it, it's like I really don't know you, either.

I'd like to try a little harder now.

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[He'll probably deny that he's not until he can't, but he is.]

I'm actually kind of glad I came back to.
I can help out here more, now that I know my friends are safe back home.

[He's touched, admittedly. He's glad for the friends he's made here.]

I don't know if I'm that tough. I don't really like fighting.
But I'd like that, Shoto-kun. I'd like to get to know you better to.

[He truly believes it.]

Really, that seems like a weight off.
I'm just glad it's worked out for you.

But it's not about wanting to. You don't need to like fighting.
It's just something you've had to do, right?

[He's not a bit different.]

That doesn't mean you're not strong.
It probably takes a lot more if you hate it.

But at least I can back you up here.

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Yeah. It's sort of like, if I don't, the people I care about could get hurt.

And I don't want that to happen.
But I'd rather just be able to hang out with everyone.

And I can do the same for you.
But I hope that we can hang out to.

[Was his sumo this serious?]

Ah. [Scary.] That's just part of being a Hero, putting those fears aside.
I think you did the right thing, Tsuna.

[But, ah—]

I'd never thought about hanging around that much.
Back home, I mean.
I'm not even sure I'd have had the time before, since I was training most days.

[Partial truth here; he wasn't allowed time for wants, much—the friendships. Too much is still-new to him.]

What do you do for fun, normally?
I wouldn't mind tagging along next time.

You've done a lot for me here.

I don't know if I'm much of a hero, but thank you Shoto-kun
I think I needed to hear that.

:) I'd be glad to have you come
If you don't mind some of my friends along as well

[He's rarely seen without Gokudera after all.]

But usually I like to watch movies, or go for walks.
I've been thinking about trying kareoke? I'm not much of a singer though

[It's the truth.]

I'll try to remind you, sometimes.

[Is that a face? Have a cat, Tsuna!]

=^.ᆺ.^=
I'd be glad to meet your friends, though.
Are they all like Gokudera?

[Yes, hoping.]

What kinds of movies? I've never watched with someone else before.
And I can't promise I can sing much, but I'll go if you'd like to.

[There's definitely a bit of surprise on Tsuna's end. Shoto usually seems so serious, that he wouldn't expect something like that.]

Thank you, Shoto-kun.

Ahaha, not all of them. But when we get together, it can be a bit chaotic.
But they're all good people.
I'm really glad I have them in my life.

[Perhaps their loyalty to Tsuna is the thing they have most in common.]

Really? It's always fun to watch with more people.
Usually I like action movies, or ones with giant robots.
But I'm open to anything.
If I can get a group together, I'll let you know.

[Mirroring, in this case. Whether or not it's with interests—his going along with things. To be with others, less lonesome. He doesn't think twice of this.]

Chaotic?

Maybe they're just excitable.
If that's the case, I'd say they're probably feeling at ease, then, being as close with you.

Everyone always surrounds their favorites.

[Lively, always.]

But I appreciate that, Tsuna.
You're always welcome over too if you like. I'll save you a shortcake.

I've got deliveries now, lately, dropping some flowers off, if you wanted to come along sometimes.
I'm just out until sensei needs me.

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[Shoto wouldn't be wrong, if Tsuna's being honest. It's still hard to believe sometimes though, since not too long ago, he was considered a loser.]

I don't think you'd be wrong there.

I'll remember that
And sure! I'd like that

If you're going now, I could come along?
I don't think I'm going to get back to sleep

[He couldn't think higher of him.]

You'd come out with me this early?
It'll be more than one stop, though...
If you're fine with that.

I'm using a bike now, and horses aren't gentle enough for flowers.

But I can pick you up.

We'd be out a few hours, so I won't blame you if you fall asleep.
There's a big cart if you can't hold on for long.

[Soba-powered rickshaw...]

You could nap with the flowers.

I don't think I'm going to be getting back to sleep, so yeah, I'm fine with it.

I'm sure we'll be able to make it work :)
And maybe being out in the morning air will help.

Thanks, Shoto-kun!

[Well, in that case:]

I'll be leaving soon, then.

Where do you stay exactly?

[Tsuna text him his address.]

See you soon!

[It's barely dawn when he arrives with a sliver of sunlight, though just as promised, he's waiting with sea blue bike, its wooden cart with crowded arrangements of mixed carnations and sunflowers. Full-bloomed lilies beside them. Folded blanket in the gap between, should Tsuna decide he's still drowsy. Silver pegs on the bike itself, if his standing's preferred. He texts him back, simply,]

I'm here when you're ready.

[But only this much. He doesn't betray his anticipation; his looking forward to things. He scans his phone, idly.]

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I am good with either; we can keep going if you want or I can set up a log?

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