text; un: didnot.

[morns]

( maybe she's had one too many drinks when this post comes to mind, which is why it isn't as anonymous as she might like it to be.

... which is why it gets posted instead of deleted as soon as the words flash over the screen. )

ever think about how long we could be here? already been a year. living here pretending shit's normal. getting jobs. playing with magic.

forgetting who we used to be.

that a good thing? being separated from all that shit?

could be here for years more. become someone new. do shit you never thought you would.

( she's already there, just by having a business. how much further can this place push her out of everything she believed she was? )

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voice; un: rokumon

[garyoutensei]

[ There's a sound of a jug being pulled back from, so obviously Baiken was drinking, too. ]

I've got something to finish back home, but I've waited a long time to do it... If I have to wait a few more, it won't end me.

[ Another swig. ]

And if in the years of being on this path that lead me to where I am now couldn't change this walking corpse of mine, this place won't either.

voice;

[morns]

Y'sure? ( Kate's voice holds the distinct slur of alcohol, but despite it, her words are clear. ) 'S already changed you. Gave you magic.

( ending up with power changes people, one way or another. )

[garyoutensei]

[ Baiken audibly shrugged. ]

Magic was already a thing where I came from. If I cared enough, I could have learned how to do this shit there, too.

Text : Un; Caster (Private)

[colchismagecraft]

[Well, talk about something that stings.]

i try not to think about iitt
a year fels so


where are you now

[More importantly, it sounded like Kate needed company.]

[morns]

( she needs her brother. her brother who she was going to spend Christmas with for the first time in all too long before this place dragged her here.

but Avalon won't give her that. )

shitty bar.
you got better booze?

text; un: manslayer

[hitokiri]

the fuck are u drinkin that ur forgetting shit that easy

cuz thatd be fuckin nice

[ just having a normal one. meaning he's also drunk. sure is easier when your mug keeps refilling itself indefinitely. ]

[morns]

a figure of speech dumbass.
shit's too nice here. don't have responsibilities. or a boss. 's easy here. don't feel like myself any more.

voice; un: redsaber

[umuperor]

[ well. maybe saber does have some wine open. who can say. ]

... I am already not who I was, and this place has little to do with it. A new environment will always have that effect, if met willingly enough. It matters little to me if I am here for years—my life burned out two millennia ago, and this new one shall last millennia more, if Fortuna offers her favor.

As precious as time is, I have an abundance of it.

[morns]

( that is a lot for the amount of shitty alcohol Kate has had. )

... Y'saying you're immortal or summat?

( is that a thing in Avalon? )

Video: @rose_of_gloucester

[silky_bearing]

Kate...

[He's clearly concerned, from the furrow of his brow to the soft edge to his voice when he says her name. ]

Whose to say that is a bad thing? Becoming someone new... I have only been here a small handful of months and have done things I'd have considered impossible before, certainly. But learning to expand one's horizons need not mean forgetting who you were, merely growing beyond the goals that person you used to be thought were possible.

video;

[morns]

( though Kate's phone goes to video, all that can really be seen is the ceiling of the shitty bar she's drinking in. )

And if that version of yourself's worse for th' people you care about?

( sure, she's happy, but if she goes home and wants out of defence, and those monsters continue to grow, and she has to use her money to fund herself finding a new job... what does that mean for Marc? he's her responsibility. and being free of that, in a way, now that she's in Avalon, feels good in a way that she hates. )

text; un: tacobell

[itsjiaheng]

lol
just be careful what you wish for
like there's　waaaaay worse places than this to end up in for ??? however long
doing shit you never thought you would
etc etc
pretty sure my world is fucked either way so ??? might as well enjoy this

[morns]

'course there is. shits easy here.
just wonder how long we're gonna be stuck here.

text; un: Rider

[amakakeru]

I'd be lying if I said I didn't like being here. It's very strange to be human again and I'm missing someone very dear to me, but it's giving me a chance to do things I wasn't able to when I was alive.

[ Like live in a mostly peaceful world. ]

Is it good? ...That I don't know.

[morns]

feels like a break sometimes, doesnt it?

( what does it say about her life that the times in Avalon which have felt most familiar to it are the emergencies and fighting beasts? )

text; un: mcmm

[groundzeroes]

Makes sense that saving the world(s) would be slow work, if you think about it.

[Rome wasn't built in a day, Japan didn't get overthrown in a women-only coup without years of preparation, ... uhhhh wait hold on we're getting off track.]

You mean to post this on main? lol

[morns]

( well, they could have been dragged straight into the middle of the end boss fight. that would have been convenient. )

no shit. but how are we supposed to go back to our lives afterwards?

( going back to asking how high as soon as Rosenberg tells her to jump after owning her own gym? to the constant, headache-inducing ringing of other powers breaking her train of thought? it's like going back to cheap trainers after years of wearing good ones.

are we tho? the things one has to remember about home is very much part of her train of thought right now. )

what dyou think?

( no, no she did not. and whoever is in this bar almost definitely heard the groan when the replies started pinging on her phone and she realised she hit post instead of delete. )

text; un: wolfcountry

[impostorsyndrome]

I wouldn't call it forgetting. Just getting a new perspective.

There're things you'll never see if you spend your whole life too close to them to make them out. All this is like forcing us far enough away that we can see the whole picture.

If anything, it's getting to know who we used to be better than ever before.

But is it crazy? Yeah. It's fucking crazy. I feel crazy about it all the time.

[morns]

( that's one way of putting it. but Kate has to wonder whether she really learned anything about herself at all. she already knew her power sucked. already knew she was good at athletics. that she hated her career path back home but grit her teeth through it because what is an underqualified and angry girl good for if not to be honed as a weapon?

that she can survive in a world where her brother might always be absent? maybe. but she'd never allow that outcome to happen. )

so what you're going home a better version of yourself?

( doesn't that sound nice. )

text; un: stargazer

[leicesters]

My thoughts are more like the opposite. For all I know, I could be gone from here tomorrow. So could you. If that's the case, I want to make the most of the time here as best I can.

[morns]

( that is definitely possible. she's seen people come and go here, after all. it's as senseless as everything else in life. )

and how do you do that?

text; un: jean

[rustyhonesty]

The longer I get to be here the happier I am. It means being away from a crappy ass world and actually able to think about something other than survival all of the time.

[morns]

awfully nice place for somewhere causin' the apocalypse, isn't it?

( sure, home isn't in "think about survival all the time", but Kate isn't sure how much longer that can last, if she's honest. )

voice; un: b.eisner

[hegemonwings]

It... will be an adjustment, when we go back. Still, I'm glad for this time.

[ byleth takes a breath. even with glimpses of timelines where she sent her fate blindly hurtling along the path destiny might have once planned, being here—being able to understand people she had not had the chance to before—has meant wonders to her, not even to mention the breadth of new experiences. ]

My wife and I hadn't expected to live nearly so openly or peacefully until years in our future. We'll have to return to old habits, when we return, but... this place, this experience, is irreplaceable to me.

[morns]

( given the voice, and the mention of a wife, Kate can only draw one conclusion from it; )

People pissy about gay couples back home?

( it's... better, back home, than it used to be. far better than it was for others older than her, she's heard. but there's still assholes here and there. still problems.

so it wouldn't surprise her to hear that such things happen in other worlds. )