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[Boredom is a hell of a drug, and also Chara should probably try to make friends on this thing.

And why not try to make friends that are around their own age?]

So like, I know this place just grabs whoever it wants right? So I guess I'm just kind of wondering how many of us are kids, like under the age of like... Fifteen? Or whatever, if you think of yourself as a kid I guess you count?

Cause I remember a girl on here trying to set up some sort of kid gang, but that seems silly, but I thought why not see how many people here are kids too.

[They feel like they're babbling so they're just going to stop now.]

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I dunno— more like, "woohoo, kid gang!" and less like— "...support network?"

[ A swift change in how he animates each reaction, showing off his derision for the latter frame even more. What he's imagining by "woohoo, kid gang!" remains to be seen, but certainly does sound less boring when he phrases it like that. Sarcastic woohoo and all. ]

That's not... Really an answer, you know?

[They're really finding this a bit annoying, but they're doing their best to not show it.]

And some people would probably like a support network that isn't just relying on adults.

Well, yeah — I mean... [ The gears start to turn a bit with that comment, and his bravado shrinks a bit as some thoughts come together. ] Yeah. Most kids here probably don't know how to take care of themselves without adults, huh.

I mean, probably. Most of the kids I've met so far seem pretty independent.

Really?! That's great!

[ Why does his face light up at that...?! ]

So it's not just a bunch of kids sitting around whining about how they miss their dads or something, then?!

[Man Chara doesn't find that weird at all.]

Not that I've seen, then again I don't know every kid here.

Just the ones worth knowing?

[ He offers a smirk. Alberto's very encouraged to hear all this. He doesn't wanna rely on adults for anything, it's true... but he doesn't wanna rely on other kids, either. He doesn't wanna rely on anyone. He just wants someone his age to have fun with. He's got the rest taken care of on his own. ~~He doesn't, but. Oh well.~~ ]

So everyone but you?

[They're just going to try and take the wind out of Alberto's sails here with that comment.]

[ It worked. ]

H-Hey—! What'd I do!

[ He's innocent, um. Rude. ]

[Just as keikaku or however the meme goes.]

I don't know you.

[Said pretty bluntly.]

Okay, well— now you do. Alberto Scorfano. And you are...?

[ Said with a friendly amount of spite. ]

[Hey they got his name out of it, so they win.]

I'm Chara. Just Chara.

Okay... Just Chara— [ He has to recover from that perceived slight from before, okay, a beat. ] So you've— been here a while, it sounds like?

Yeah, I have. [They click their tongue.] Half a year now, to be exact.

Half a—

[ And there's another crack in this armor of bravado Alberto puts on, and his face looks crestfallen for a split second before shifting into a dubious, discerning look like before. ]

You've been here six months — and you haven't gone home at all?

[Chara catches the crestfallen look, even if it is only for a second, and it makes them smile.]

I couldn't go home if I wanted to, I'm kind of dead back there.

Wha—...

[ Chara, it's hard to keep catching Alberto off-guard like this, really, bravo. ]

Y-You're dead—? Like—

[ He makes that weird crackling noise drawing a finger across his own throat like a slice. Not. the most sensitive? But also doesn't seem to be acting nearly as dismissive as he had otherwise. ]

Dead-dead?

Yep, dead as a doornail dead.

[Hey, they don't seem to mind? In fact, how Alberto is reacting seems to just make Chara happier. And it's mostly because everyone so far has been sad when they told them about the whole being dead thing.]

It kind of sucks, so I don't recommend it to anyone.

Ya think?

[ He says flatly. Like, duh, of course you wouldn't recommend it to anyone. Who'd take that recommendation, anyway?! The wheels in Alberto's head are still turning, though, and even through his dubious, narrowed gaze, he's at least relieved to see this kid's... not taking it too hard, apparently...? So he doesn't feel too awkward asking more questions. ]

So— we're not all dead, right? Just you? How do you know you're dead, anyway? I mean— do you remember, or...?

[ Remember dying or remember being dead, he's not clear on. Although even sea monster society had superstitions like these, Alberto's never really believed in ghosts too much, so he's more likely to accept this as something more... complicated than that, from the sounds of it. He just hopes he didn't miss something in the welcome wagon spiel it occurs to him he probably should have paid a little better attention to. ]

I'm just saying.

[Actually for Chara there are some people they'd like to see dead. A lot of people, human people. But that's neither here nor there right now.]

I know I'm dead because I remember dying and the boring void of nothingness from being dead, I can't speak about anyone else here. But I'm pretty sure you don't have to be dead to end up here, if you're worried about that.

Yeah, that's what I was worried about. Just a little.

[ He makes a pinch with his fingers, the sarcasm not even turning off for something so... grave. No pun intended. He's still searching for each word as it comes out of his mouth, eyes darting to the side as he tries to find some footing here. ]

So, then— uh— are you, um... glad to... be— alive... again?

[ How the fuck do you proceed with a conversation like this gruihsdjnk he's pretty sure that's not the right thing to say but... is there one!? ]

You sure sounded worried about it.

[If their grin could get any wider, it would be as wide as humanly possible right now. In fact, their expression is probably a little off-kilter right now, it's been a while since they've gotten to have someone so off guard.]

Of course I am, who wouldn't be happy to be alive?

[It's kind of the truth?]

[ The way Chara smiles doesn't elicit a smile back. It's not exactly off-putting, but it's also not... not off-putting...? But Alberto's undeterred, even if a bit shaken inwardly. ]

I dunno. Maybe your life sucked?

[ He shrugs. Too blunt? ]

...So how'd you die?

[ Too blunt. ]

[Chara chuckles a little at the question, yeah their life sucked up to a point but they don't feel like sharing that. Instead, they're going to answer the question posed to them about how they died.]

Let me just tell you, don't eat a ton of buttercups. It's a horrible way to go.

What's a— wait, you ate so much butter you died...?! Per mille sardine...! Why?!

[ Okay, so if there was question if Alberto was being sensitive enough before, uh... We've found an answer. ]

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cw casual talk about suicide

all good here, ty tho!