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avalononline2021-02-12 04:39 pm
troubadamsel) wrote in avalononline2021-02-12 04:39 pm
video; un: shepherdess
Greetings, one and all. I have an... inquiry, I suppose I'd put it, about the ... rather ghastly quests we've been offered.
For those who've been here longer than I... are these type of quests normal for this place? Manipulating emotions like a child's plaything to outright murder... If we are supposed to be heroes intent on saving all the realms, I must say these actions hardly seem heroic at all!
[ After a moment, there's the gentle 'coo' of a bird off-screen. Maribelle hesitates, then sighs. ]
... All right, there is another reason I'm using this device. During the tournament, it appears my behavior was... less than savory. If I offended anyone -
[ The 'coo' is a bit louder this time. Maribelle bites her lower lip, then resigns herself. ]
... To those I did offend, I offer my most sincere apologies. I should have known entering would have brought out the worst of me, and yet I did it anyway, for the sake of greed. As a representative of my world, it is my duty to ensure I leave a good impression on all, and behave much less like a snob.
... Admittedly, the latter is difficult for me. For those who struggle with a similar behavior, I ask for advice on tempering it, lest I offend others again.
For those who've been here longer than I... are these type of quests normal for this place? Manipulating emotions like a child's plaything to outright murder... If we are supposed to be heroes intent on saving all the realms, I must say these actions hardly seem heroic at all!
[ After a moment, there's the gentle 'coo' of a bird off-screen. Maribelle hesitates, then sighs. ]
... All right, there is another reason I'm using this device. During the tournament, it appears my behavior was... less than savory. If I offended anyone -
[ The 'coo' is a bit louder this time. Maribelle bites her lower lip, then resigns herself. ]
... To those I did offend, I offer my most sincere apologies. I should have known entering would have brought out the worst of me, and yet I did it anyway, for the sake of greed. As a representative of my world, it is my duty to ensure I leave a good impression on all, and behave much less like a snob.
... Admittedly, the latter is difficult for me. For those who struggle with a similar behavior, I ask for advice on tempering it, lest I offend others again.
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war makes people desperate
dont be hard on yourself for being cutthroat in a magic tournament when you're coming from a war zone
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Please let me stop you there before there are any further misunderstanings.
While I have fought in war, I was not taking part in the combative parts of the tournament. I was in the healing contest.
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well my point still stands
that kind of environment takes its toll on everyone, healer or combatant or civilian
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In the contest, I was turning away individuals who had smaller, less serious injuries so I could save my magic and energy for those who truly needed it. But instead of actually explaining myself, I became snappy and irate.
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i knew a combat medic once. a mage. he talked to me about how hard it was to make those calls. does he use his magic to heal those who are not so gravely injured so that they can continue to keep fighting, does he heal those with severe injuries so that they may stay alive, even if they cannot fight after... what if he spends all his energy and supplies failing to save one life and others die in the time it takes to fail to save that one person? these are hard decisions kindhearted people shouldn't have to make.
but that's war.
and even if this is just a contest and not war, without a whole battalion's lives in your hands, just a magic tournament... ......i still can't imagine faulting you for not being polite under that kind of pressure. good on you to be humble and self-aware... but don't take it to heart.
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I must say, I'm rather surprised to have someone understand my mindset right away! I do feel a lot better, knowing there's someone out there who knows me almost better than I know myself.
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i wouldnt go that far.....
but yeah
people who have never stepped foot in a warzone can't pass judgment
be nice to people or whatever yeah obviously but even if youre not, at the end of the day you were still helping people and thats what matters
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and you?
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