I have been living my life the way that I desire. Being here has taken that choice out of my hands. I can no longer abide by how I chose to live.

[ ...Partially true. He had chosen to become what he is in the end. Perhaps it is not the only thing that he wants to be, but it is what he is. Being here means that he can no longer follow through with the first free choice he's ever hand. And that...

That doesn't settle well on him.

He doesn't know WHAT to do. ]