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[Alec is sitting in his room at the inn, trying to ignore the spectral whippet gnawing on a squeaky bone behind him. He doesn't know where she got it and he isn't inclined to ask]

Right. [he rubs his eyes with a hand and then stares at the camera]

Let's get this shit show organized. The sooner we get everything done, the sooner we can leave so it's time to figure out who can do what. Who are you and what can you do? What are your strengths and weaknesses? We should have some sort of formal training so that like can work with like and eventually figure out how to work together as a cohesive unit in case something big comes along.

[he doesn't want to even think of what that might be]

Also are there any legitimate doctors around? And I don't mean someone who can do 'healing' [he waves his hands] whatever the fuck that means, but someone with medical training. If you have that... let's talk.

[he has a small problem that if he doesn't get it fixed will soon turn into a very large problem so he's doing what he can]

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I've got to fix this bloody mess, don't I? [a sigh]

To go home and fix another bloody mess. Maybe this time I'll actually not screw it up. Or not let anyone else do it either.

The sad thing is I feel like it's closer to home... of course it is because everything is close to home it's like sardines in a can, which is why Miller can't see it because she folds like a wet paper towel. She's an officer of the law. People are not your friends at work. They are suspects or they are victims or... [he waves a hand] coworkers... but she can't see it and won't see it and whoever killed that boy knew that bloody town well enough to slip out of sight like a rat in the sewers.

And it's going to hurt her. Christ it will sting. But maybe she'll get the armor she needs to actually do her bloody job and not want to bake it puddings or whatever.

[ Funny that. Some how during this battle Alec had slipped into alien and he had lost Crowley almost instantly. ]

Miller?

[ There was so much about Alec's real life that he didn't know anything about. ]

That your girlfriend?

No. [he makes a face] Ellie.

I don't have a girlfriend. All I have is an ex-wife and a sad excuse for a marriage so I supposed in the other life I was smarter than that.

[ Ellie. Another former cousin. Made excellent tea and had warm hugs. ]

What happened?

[ Now that Alec remembered it all it seemed appropriate to ask. ]

[he is quiet a long moment. He'd asked himself that a lot but he'd always known]

Spent too much time at work. Too much time on cases. I let it slip away. [he couldn't really blame Tess that much.] Don't do that with Fell. Whatever else happens. Things like that are too important to just let go of.

[but he would have done it again. And again. And again. Justice felt so much more important. Truth felt so much more important. It could be he just wasn't made for that kind of thing. Not when there was so much work to do.]

Hold on as tightly as you can to every moment of joy you can get.

I don't need you to tell me that.

[ Wasn't he already working on feathering a next for the pair of them? Not that he would bring that up, too soft! ]

I don't even have a job to get in the way.

Lazy wanker. [but said fondly] Good. [he leans back against the wall]

One less thing to worry about

[ Silence and a long stare. ]

That what your doing? Trying to form your own Police Squad?

No. [a faint smile] Just some organization. I'm not so ambitious, just have things to do.

[ It sounded ambitious to him, a bit like herding cats... or unicorns, and not something that would happen easily. ]

Should I wish you luck?

You could help gather information. Get people together. You're good at that. Must be the hair.

I know a few people and what their powers are... Not really interested in getting stuck in another save the world mission.

[ Another, like he was out there saving them all the time. ]

Aziraphale wants to stay here, get settled in, that's much more what I was thinking.

Right. [somehow he had hoped... but it didn't matter]

Forget it, then. Enjoy whatever.

Eternity.

[ Some how that didn't sound so bad when he knew he would be spending it with Aziraphale. ]

Yeah, same to you. Enjoy... whatever you can.

[another stab of jealousy but he pushes it away]

Nah.

[he had little enough time left and not enough to indulge in anything but work. He cut the feed and sat in the sudden quiet. What did he need eternity for? He barely deserved the now]