text; un: lilmonix3 [locked from: kipposhi]

[peninhand]

[ First it starts as a video feed, but Monika looks clearly unhappy and bothered by something. She doesn't find her words and after a couple seconds the video feed ends, switching to text messaging instead. ]

Hey everyone, Monika here!

What do you do to keep yourself busy in Avalon when nothing's happening? I have like, no energy. I've barely left my room this past week, ahaha! I'm trying to get myself out of this rut, but it's like as soon as I decide myself to do something, I lose all willpower.

Also, I'm turning nineteen on the 22nd. I don't have anything planned, but I guess I'd like to at least keep the day from being absolutely boring. I'll take any and all tips on how to kill time and get yourself out of a low energy phase.

Thank you! ♥

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[peninhand]

[ She wondered... Was she really happy? It made no doubt she felt that way when hanging out with her friends or doing fun things. But by that token, Monika should be happy too. She had good friends, she did fun stuff with them every now and then. She did feel "joy" in those moments, yet she couldn't say she was happy as a whole. Obviously they weren't talking about ephemeral happiness. There was something beyond this. The kind of true and lasting happiness people longed for. The one which, when absent, cast a shadow over everything else.

And after everything she'd heard today? She couldn't believe Minako had that sort of happiness. Not when she'd been forced to give up on her dreams.

Yet... She couldn't ignore any longer how selfish it was, to project so much. Her problems, her expectations, her hopes— Even if they shared similarities, she couldn't simply put the weight of her own burden on Minako's shoulders. She remained silent a moment, just gathering her thoughts in the comforting embrace. When finally she was sure no tears were streaming down any more, she pulled back slightly to look at Minako. ]

I want to see my friends safe too. To help everyone be happy... [She looked down.] But I'm far too selfish to content myself with that.

[ The person she'd once been may have been happy with nothing but friendships and the knowledge her loved ones are safe. But the person she'd become... Didn't want to settle for anything less than a perfect ending. ]

Ahaha. Me, a princess? [She laughed. It was a fun thought... And she could even technically get the nobility title if she wanted.] Well, you already have a princess to protect. A real one. [She smiled sweetly and tilted her head to the side.] But I'm glad I made a precious friend like you here.

[reloves]

I don't think that's selfish.

[ But then again, Minako is heavily biased, isn't she. She'd have a hard time ever saying anything rude about a friend, let alone someone she really wants to see happy. So of course she would answer that way, without even having to think about it, as she slowly lets go of the other girl. ]

You're just looking out for yourself! Besides, who could blame you for wanting the love you deserve so badly when it's been denied to you for so long, you know?

[ There's a slight pause, but then Minako shakes her head, looking a little bit more sheepish. ]

And, um.. I guess I should let you finish brushing my hair, huh. [ She might be feeling a little embarrassed that she had such an outburst over the idea of someone harassing Monika and interrupted all of that.. But she couldn't help it! She really did feel that passionate about it in the moment! ]

[peninhand]

[ Who could blame her... No one, asides from herself. That was always the same issue. Her worst enemy was herself. But this wasn't an issue limited to Monika, most people were like that. And did this not apply to Minako either? Who would blame her if she pursued her other dreams? No one in all likelihood. Except herself.

Regardless, Monika managed to go back to her smiling self when Minako spoke of brushing her hair. She nodded and patted the chair. ]

Mhm! I can't let you with only half of your hair done, ahaha~!

[ It was easier to smile when she was doing something for someone other than herself. Maybe that was what Minako meant... Regardless, Monika picked back the brush. ]

I really let myself go in the days following that date... I felt like I had no reason to keep taking care of myself. [She raised a finger. Thank goodness there were no picture records of the mess her hair had been after a few days.] But we don't need a reason to want and feel pretty, right? Boys least of all.