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[ First it starts as a video feed, but Monika looks clearly unhappy and bothered by something. She doesn't find her words and after a couple seconds the video feed ends, switching to text messaging instead. ]

Hey everyone, Monika here!

What do you do to keep yourself busy in Avalon when nothing's happening? I have like, no energy. I've barely left my room this past week, ahaha! I'm trying to get myself out of this rut, but it's like as soon as I decide myself to do something, I lose all willpower.

Also, I'm turning nineteen on the 22nd. I don't have anything planned, but I guess I'd like to at least keep the day from being absolutely boring. I'll take any and all tips on how to kill time and get yourself out of a low energy phase.

Thank you! ♥

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[ Okay, this is who she thought Kipposhi was talking about. And she's not quite as young as Steph imagined from that anonymous thread. Still, she's clearly not doing great. ]

Happy birthday! The beach party ended up being a lot of fun. The water's gotten a lot colder since then, but maybe you should do something active like that?

[ Emojis and lack of proper punctuation were a good way to keep her anonymity. Nobody would suspect she was the emote-spamming anon. Her natural style would be a middle ground between both... But it was so much easier to keep the proper writing style as her public face and the emote-spam as her anon cover. ]

Thank you! And I'm glad to hear it went well. I'm sorry I couldn't come, I was busy with my channel ahaha.

Maybe! The water's way too cold but some physical exercises could help. I just need to find the willpower to push myself out of that hotel room.

Oh don't worry about it, I'm sorry you didn't get any s'mores!

[ This is difficult. She really wants to help, but she doesn't want to embarass Monika because she knows what happened, and she doesn't want to make things worse because she's friends with Kipposhi even though he was an ass, and she definitely doesn't want to lie about any of it. So she has to help... from a safe distance. ]

You can always ask someone to go with you. Then you've got an extra incentive. Maybe go to an indoor pool, or go out shopping or something? Distraction only helps for so long but I always think better in motion.

Mh-mm! It's always easier to stay motivated when you have a friend with you.

It's weird. I really want to get out of this rut, but at the same time I have such a hard time getting motivated. I'm not like this usually, I tend to really have a lot of drive and energy. To be honest, I think I was more looking for an excuse to speak with people for a bit than anything else, ahaha.

I'm glad you found a reason. I know how hard it can be to reach out when you're in a slump like that. "Fake it 'till you make it" does actually work sometimes.

Ahaha! It totally does, doesn't it?

That's pretty much my MO. And well, I try to get my friends to overcome their own issues that way too. I really look confident so when I tell them I'm just faking it all, it surprises them and encourages them to try. But I can't even fake properly right now, that's why I'm not leaving my room much.

Sorry! Gosh, I don't know why I even speak of things like that. We barely know each other, ahaha.

[ Everything she learns about this girl is unhealthy. ]

It's okay. If you need to talk, you should talk. I just wonder if maybe I'm someone you don't want to be talking to?

Huh? What do you mean?

[ That was a bit weird, wasn't it? It's like she's saying she in particular is someone she shouldn't want to talk to? But why? Perhaps because she barely knew her, but... ]

[ .....Uh oh. ]

I mean, I'm pretty good friends with Kipposhi? I just thought it might be a little awkward.

[ Are you kidding her... Had Kipposhi gone around and told of this "date" to other people? Right, that was probably hilarious when he got to the part where he the gig was up. Even to the friends she'd been confiding to, she'd been careful not to say his name so far because... She didn't know. She figured it wouldn't be right. That wasn't the sort of behavior that worked alongside her promise to be a better person.

But of course, she wasn't granted the same privacy. What an asshole. The next reply didn't come till half an hour later. ]

Is Kipposhi entertaining his guests by telling them of that time he played a prank on a stupid girl? I bet that's quite the funny story to pass around.

[ Aaaaaaand she didn't know. Well shit. ]

We've been friends for a good while. I wouldn't stop bothering him because he's been such an amoeba lately. Which is appropriate, I guess, given the circumstances. He feels like a shitheel. I told him he'd damn well better feel like a shitheel. I'm sorry, I thought you knew we were close. I don't think he's told anyone else, and I would never spread something like that around. If it helps I would be more than happy to punch him in the face for you. I owe him at least one. I would have punched him already just on principle but we were at work and I didn't want to explain to our boss why breaking his nose was a reasonable response.

[ So he was feeling miserable, huh? That confirmed her suspicions. In all likelihood, he'd just made really dumb decisions, right? He was probably not evil or malevolent. Though... Him having made those stupid decisions while knowing of her story? She still couldn't understand how it was possible. She couldn't understand how it had happened without some form of ill-intent on his end. Hence why he was "probably" not malevolent. There was still a big doubt in her mind. ]

Knowing he's been punched would probably make me feel better for about ten minutes. [If even that.] Thank you but it's not worth the effort.

[ Then she adds, upon realizing she could have worded that last sentence better. ]

He's not worth the effort.

Probably not, but it would be fun. It could be a birthday present. I could send you pics

[ There was a bit of a delay before next reply. Not because she hesitated. But because she wonder why Stephanie was talking to her right now. They'd only talked once very briefly before. It didn't make much sense she'd reply to that post in particular.

So the only option? She was here because of what she knew. Pity. Ugh, the thought of people pitying her because of that date was... More than unpleasant, to say the least. But she was just trying to be kind, so Monika wasn't going to be rude about it. It was nice, if anything. So she didn't reply to the "punch birthday gift" and instead went to the core of the matter. ]

I'm alright, you know?

I appreciate the concern. But you don't need to worry. I've gone through worse before.

[ She's definitely not okay, but whatever makes her feel better. But now Steph feels super awkward again, and she's not great at awkward social interactions to begin with. ]

Of course! I mean, I didn't mean it like that. I just know it's what I would want, and people think I'm joking sometimes but sometimes people just really need to get punched. I feel like anything I say at this point is just going to make me more of an ass. I hope you get out of your rut and your birthday is fun. [ She would like very much to forget this conversation happened. ]

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