Talking with you has helped a whole lot, you know. [She meant it. She'd been feeling better up till she'd mentioned that. Heck, that was because she'd been better that she'd been able to mention it.] It does hurt, but...
[ But what? It would be a lie to say it was okay. Ah, the roles had been reversed so quickly. Just a minute ago, Minako had been the one torn and she'd been the one trying to comfort her. But a lot of the things Minako had said had resonated with her. Different situations, different fates, and yet— ]
Earlier you said you used to wonder if there's something wrong with you... I'm wondering that too. The player, now this... Maybe it wasn't the game that kept me from knowing love. Maybe there's something essentially wrong with me.
[ Rationally, those were only two examples. But they were the only ones she had experienced, and they'd both been disastrous. With the player, her despair and obsession had led to her becoming a monster, and eventually to her death. With Kipposhi it had been less dramatic... But that only reinforced the idea that this wasn't meant to be. Even on another world, even free from the game. Maybe the problem was her. ]
What if my creator made it so I could never be chosen... Because I don't know how to love? Because I can't love? [It made a scary amount of sense... Even if it contradicted some of the things she knew and suspected about her reality. In a void, it really sounded logical.] But even then, I don't want to give up. And I guess that's why I don't want you to give up, either. [She smiled once more, a surprisingly natural smile.] I want to believe this is a world of infinite possibilities. I want to believe here we can fight our fates— And find happiness. If someone as amazing as you can't do it, then what hope is there for me?
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[ But what? It would be a lie to say it was okay. Ah, the roles had been reversed so quickly. Just a minute ago, Minako had been the one torn and she'd been the one trying to comfort her. But a lot of the things Minako had said had resonated with her. Different situations, different fates, and yet— ]
Earlier you said you used to wonder if there's something wrong with you... I'm wondering that too. The player, now this... Maybe it wasn't the game that kept me from knowing love. Maybe there's something essentially wrong with me.
[ Rationally, those were only two examples. But they were the only ones she had experienced, and they'd both been disastrous. With the player, her despair and obsession had led to her becoming a monster, and eventually to her death. With Kipposhi it had been less dramatic... But that only reinforced the idea that this wasn't meant to be. Even on another world, even free from the game. Maybe the problem was her. ]
What if my creator made it so I could never be chosen... Because I don't know how to love? Because I can't love? [It made a scary amount of sense... Even if it contradicted some of the things she knew and suspected about her reality. In a void, it really sounded logical.] But even then, I don't want to give up. And I guess that's why I don't want you to give up, either. [She smiled once more, a surprisingly natural smile.] I want to believe this is a world of infinite possibilities. I want to believe here we can fight our fates— And find happiness. If someone as amazing as you can't do it, then what hope is there for me?