yeah we got by we worked in a little teashop at first then my uncle's expertise was recognized by some high-standing officials who visited, and they offered to fund him opening his own business so after that we moved to the upper ring and had a nicer apartment i guess.. he ran a successful teashop called the jasmine dragon and i worked alongside him in the shops as a busboy and sometimes a waiter.. i wasnt great at being a waiter.... i preferred to clean.. but that was my whole life for many months. no one knew who we really were we were just normal people i went by lee and he went by mushi.... and that was it.
living here.. it's been like that again. except i'm myself. like i told you, there's one important thing i'm hiding from most people, but some people know. and that helps. but even for the people who don't.... maybe especially with those people, because they don't know this thing about me.. i can just be myself. just a normal person. not lee. not anyone in particular. no one important. just me. whoever that is. so it's similar to my time ba sing se.. but better. more honest.
if you have someone you trust to be yourself around, i think that's important. if i didn't have uncle by my side who knew the truth, whom i could talk to plainly, i don't think i would've "got by" undercover in the earth kingdom. i tried to be on my own once, still as a fugitive, still posing as a refugee, before we moved to the city. we had been beggars living in the forest. i couldn't stand it. so i left uncle. i thought there was nothing more i could learn from him, that it was time for me to set out on my own.... but in reality i was just wandering the countryside alone on an ostrich-horse with no food or money. it was hard. i thought being alone would be better for me, for my sense of self, for my strength. it wasn't. you can't carry your own identity alone. you need people who know you around to be able to know yourself. im sure youre doing your mission well, but.. that's my advice you didn't ask for. ha.
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we worked in a little teashop at first
then my uncle's expertise was recognized by some high-standing officials who visited, and they offered to fund him opening his own business
so after that we moved to the upper ring and had a nicer apartment i guess..
he ran a successful teashop called the jasmine dragon
and i worked alongside him in the shops as a busboy and sometimes a waiter.. i wasnt great at being a waiter.... i preferred to clean..
but that was my whole life for many months.
no one knew who we really were
we were just normal people
i went by lee and he went by mushi....
and that was it.
living here.. it's been like that again. except i'm myself.
like i told you, there's one important thing i'm hiding from most people, but some people know. and that helps.
but even for the people who don't.... maybe especially with those people, because they don't know this thing about me..
i can just be myself. just a normal person.
not lee. not anyone in particular. no one important. just me. whoever that is.
so it's similar to my time ba sing se.. but better. more honest.
if you have someone you trust to be yourself around, i think that's important. if i didn't have uncle by my side who knew the truth, whom i could talk to plainly, i don't think i would've "got by" undercover in the earth kingdom.
i tried to be on my own once, still as a fugitive, still posing as a refugee, before we moved to the city. we had been beggars living in the forest. i couldn't stand it. so i left uncle. i thought there was nothing more i could learn from him, that it was time for me to set out on my own.... but in reality i was just wandering the countryside alone on an ostrich-horse with no food or money. it was hard. i thought being alone would be better for me, for my sense of self, for my strength. it wasn't.
you can't carry your own identity alone. you need people who know you around to be able to know yourself.
im sure youre doing your mission well, but.. that's my advice you didn't ask for. ha.
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