[ Giving advice to others that you couldn't follow when it came to yourself... Honestly she couldn't be angry, she was that way too. Most people were, really. Maybe gods and humans weren't so different after all. Still... It was fair to share a story.
Why she was so scared of allowing herself to be anything but perfect, even a little bit. ]
I was once manipulated by the shadow of another god into ending my existence and allowing him to take over my duties. While I was in the process of "dying," he attacked those dear to me and planned to turn the Underworld into a hellish landscape where the souls of the dead would be tortured instead of resting peacefully. He even had me attack my dear friends.
I was freed from his control and things ended well. However, this only happened because I had lowered my guard. My time with Ritsuka strengthened my longing for a better life. And with it, my guilt at such thoughts. He found a weakness to exploit, a way to worm himself into my mind.
If I am anything but perfect, the risks are too great.
[ Even though she was starting to feel herself breaking down. Both as a result of what had happened with Chaldea and this human vessel influencing her thoughts. ]
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Why she was so scared of allowing herself to be anything but perfect, even a little bit. ]
I was once manipulated by the shadow of another god into ending my existence and allowing him to take over my duties. While I was in the process of "dying," he attacked those dear to me and planned to turn the Underworld into a hellish landscape where the souls of the dead would be tortured instead of resting peacefully. He even had me attack my dear friends.
I was freed from his control and things ended well. However, this only happened because I had lowered my guard. My time with Ritsuka strengthened my longing for a better life. And with it, my guilt at such thoughts. He found a weakness to exploit, a way to worm himself into my mind.
If I am anything but perfect, the risks are too great.
[ Even though she was starting to feel herself breaking down. Both as a result of what had happened with Chaldea and this human vessel influencing her thoughts. ]