No one has asked you to be a tool here. I cannot know what it's like to live like an object, I cannot speak of the hardships you have endured. But you do not have to be what you were back in your world anymore.
The first step to being yourself rather than a tool, is to make the choice to live as you wish.
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The first step to being yourself rather than a tool, is to make the choice to live as you wish.