[he is quiet a long moment. He'd asked himself that a lot but he'd always known]

Spent too much time at work. Too much time on cases. I let it slip away. [he couldn't really blame Tess that much.] Don't do that with Fell. Whatever else happens. Things like that are too important to just let go of.

[but he would have done it again. And again. And again. Justice felt so much more important. Truth felt so much more important. It could be he just wasn't made for that kind of thing. Not when there was so much work to do.]

Hold on as tightly as you can to every moment of joy you can get.